Janeth Canama

  Before the feels fade and the high subside, I just want to document that I had a really great time in this year's MSP Region 10, 12 & BARMMM annual convention. I think it's the most fun conference I've attended, to date. I've been to a couple conferences in other MSP Regions, and conferences in math education but I think what makes this special is that most participants in this conference are my cohort. My peers who I used to only interact virtually I saw face-to-face. It was fun discussing math and everyone being enthusiastic about it. You could see collaborations forming after presentations. I don't think I will have a collaboration from it but it doesn't matter. This is me dipping my toes in the math ocean. I crave community and I got it. So many more things to reflect on but that will be reserved to my private journal. We gotta move forward, baby. No time to dwell.

I know Taylor Swift has released a new album. I don't really have a favorite though. I have not listened to it enough. Maybe 'questions?" So here I am at midnight. And I can't sleep. I should have went to the closing program of non-gaussian analysis. Maybe then I'll get tired from walking. I thought I could get some work done today but nada. Nothing about today went as planned. But that's fine. That's just life. I'm overwhelmed. Too many things are happening. My life could change in the next two months if I do it right. Where do I draw the inspiration from? I'm thinking of dedicating my dissertation to my late grandparents. I know I'm better at helping other people than myself. That's just my flaw. I can't sleep and there's a conference tomorrow. I'm way overstimulated and my mind is running at high speed. Will you settle down, please?

Our paper has been accepted for publication in Symmetry! This is indeed a milestone and I'm one step closer to graduation. Honestly, I'm overwhelmed and I don't know what to do. This will give me a second wind to revise the manuscript for IDAQP. I've never been under this scrutiny from reviewers. I don't remember it being this tedious in my masters. Well, we were not required to publish then.  Anyway, I could get used to this feeling. I love the validation more than the fact that I'm closer to graduation. I'm excited to write more! I'm excited to do more research although I hate the revision process. It's love-hate, yes. But the pay-off is worth it. Now the pressure is on to submit the dissertation manuscript to my advisers and then to the panel. I hope I can make it.