Janeth Canama

Two days, I received a somewhat good news. But I don't wanna talk about it yet because I don't wanna jinx it. For now I will work hard and write. If you squint at the title then you probably already know what it is. But again, nothing is certain until a final decision is made. Still a lot of work to do but I'm getting there. 

This is the second part of my Living alone series. Reiterating what I said in the first part, this also chronicles my struggles with my comprehensive exams and my PhD program. So I moved to an apartment in San Miguel, Iligan City from April 2021 to September 2021.   4/10 My plans were derailed. There was a fire somewhere near. I was already dragging my feet before then. But that really put a dent on my plans. Maybe I should drink coffee in the mornings to wake up. They were talking about the previous occupant. Apparently, it's someone they know. And he was robbed twice. Sometimes, you just gotta put your ear in the ground. I mean nothing happened. But it could have. And I don't know what to do if it happened to me. As I said, it derailed my plans. I could go out now but I'll just do it tomorrow. Maybe drink some tea in the meantime? Later at 7pm. That's the thing about me. I don't bounce back easily. But these things don't happen everyday. It's my...

I've submitted the paper to the journal. I've submitted the special order to the embassy. I've submitted the acceptance letter to DOST. And I haven't heard from any of them. Just silence. It's nerve-wracking. Guess I gotta be patient. And do something productive in the meantime. Like you know, write the dissertation manuscript.

Today I woke up feeling like the world was spinning. Didn't know what was wrong. Tried sleeping it off and then I felt like I had to throw up. I did throw up and it was pure acid! Twice! So that was what stomach acid tasted like, like pure unripe mango. I didn't see the color because it was dark. But there was no food in it. Just pure liquid and it reacted like acid! Just scary. The last meal I've eaten is breakfast/lunch. But this is the first time this has happened to me. So that was the cause of my headache/vertigo. So I eventually ate something even though I had no appetite. And I feel a lot better now. I really don't know the reason for this episode. Maybe food poisoning? Who knows. The body keeps score. And it wants me to know that it was not okay.