To coffee or not to coffee? That is the question.

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I have a dilemma. I hate coffee. But I need it to stay up all night.

Why do I hate it? Not really because of the taste. I hate it because of what it does to my body. I get hungry easily. I get a stomachache. I get jittery. I palpitate. Also, I pee pretty often which is annoying and puts me out of flow of what I'm doing. On the flip side, by going to the bathroom every ten minutes or so, I am kept awake. Hmm, it could be beneficial I guess.

Why do I need it? Because I need to be awake. And I need a shot of energy. That’s really it.

Why do I need to stay up all night? Hmm. Let’s just say I need to write a time-sensitive document to be submitted during the weekend. My target is Sunday morning.

Why do I struggle with it? Because I suck at planning in general. I hate structure. I can do an impromptu lecture just fine. Although, that still needs a little bit of planning. But I want to get to the heart of the matter fast. The structure that I have to adhere to doesn’t really allow me to do that. Although, it’s really for the benefit of the students. So I have to comply. Begrudgingly.

One way of getting around this is to skip directly to the discussions part. Because that’s the fun part. All the other parts, especially Review and Motivation, will be filled in later.

There’s also another thing that frustrates me. I want to create a tribute video to my advisory class. But when I test for copyright issues, it got muted on facebook. Youtube might be more lenient. Maybe.

This is also one source of my frustrations. I want to do these fun projects but I can’t. Because these documents that I have to write are time-sensitive. I can’t put them off for later. I have to prioritize them.

I’m complaining again. Suck it up, self.

P.S. I did get coffee after all. Let’s see how this goes.

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