How it started
A day after final exams for the summer term of AY 2023-2024, I received a bunch of anonymous emails. At first, I shrugged it off as a newsletter that I signed up to. A couple emails later, it became clear that it came from one of my former students. Didn’t know it was her until August 2nd. Realized feelings were mutual the day after. Made the relationship official on August 7th. I was the one who asked because “she didn’t wanna cross the line”.
I used to say, in this blog, that I’m only interested in how couples get together, not really what’s after.
“And if it’s pretty clear that the two characters are into each other, then the story is over. What I mean is that I’m no longer interested in what happens next.” Well, I’d like to take that back! I’m still very much interested. We’re already a couple but it feels like we’re still courting each other. We still flirt with each other. I tell her this, that it still keeps getting better and better. I’m so grateful and I won’t take this for granted.
We’re competitive in a good way. I made a playlist for her, she made one for me. And it has to be the same number of minutes 😂 I admit the first song, Lover by Taylor Swift, made me emotional. I didn’t know she felt that way about me. Then there’s Monsters by Katie Sky. She’s my confidante. I’ve told her things I’ve never told anyone before, not even my own mother.
We complement each other. I overthink too much, she doesn’t. She’s from the TikTok generation, I’m a millennial who grew up on Friendster. I would never have done what she did. She’s gutsy and I love that about her. She can be a bit bossy (I told her this) and it’s hot until she starts bossing me around. Kidding!
This is my healthiest relationship yet which is silly because this is my first one 😂Like, what’s the superlative about? There’s nothing to compare it to. She gives me my space and has my best interests in mind. One reason I wrote this is because I can’t focus on my class preparation. I kept thinking about her. I have to externalize these thoughts or it will keep swirling and distract me.
I was worried that she was taller than me. It turns out we’re pretty much the same height which is a bummer because a height difference would have been cute and perfect for a forehead kiss. Well, we can’t have it all 😂
She celebrates my existence. She consumes everything I ever produced (blog, podcast). Ginawa ba naman akong content provider? But I love that about her. She’s learning about me, I'm learning about her. She’s taking notes and I do too! I’ve always wanted to ask her, “please tell me how to love you”, but I think I no longer have to ask.
I don’t know what she saw in me and I kept asking her “why me?” Why did I get so lucky? And when I mentioned past crushes, and she asked why, I said I don’t know. There’s just something about them. “So why do you keep asking me why you?” Okay, point taken 😂 I will stop asking na.
I tell her that it’s more than just a relationship. She inspired me to come out to my mom when she came out to hers. Her courage is inspiring! That’s actually when I realized that she’s serious about us. She’s making preparations for it to be official. Of course, I’m competitive, so I came out, too! 😂 She inspires me to make lifestyle changes and to be a better person. Because as corny as it sounds, I wanna live long enough so I can love her. “Gusto kong mabuhay nang matagal. Mamahalin pa kita!”
I asked her to come to Dahilayan with me with some colleagues. Her friends apparently asked, won’t you feel awkward, you’re with former teachers? And she responded, “I’m there for her, not for them”. I think my heart just melted 🥹
I love you, Angelica Dalis. Thank you for coming to my life! I love our love story. I love you, above all 🩷
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