You deserve newborn love

I was listening to Blind by Lifehouse on repeat and these lyrics stood out to me and I couldn't help but feel emotional. I always loved this song but today is just one of those days when it hit me.

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know

I always felt that I have to do something incredible to be deserving of love.

But no, the moment I was born I was already deserving of love. I don't have to do anything.

How can you expect someone else to love you if you can't even love yourself?

I'm so hard on myself lately. Like existing is not even enough.

I don't have to feel this way anymore. At least I'm trying to.

Anyway, I was listening to this song on repeat and I cannot get enough of it. I had to pause it eventually because I was looking for drum covers. But they ain't any good. At least not the way I want it to.

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